Earth

Why are we here on earth? What are we meant to do here on earth? Here lately I have wonder this. I have not come up with the answer yet. I have asked a lot of doctors this answer and they couldn't even give me the answer. I have heard that god put us here for a purpose, but what was the purpose. There are some many things that we are doing to earth that some people say are wrong, but are they. I mean we learn something new about earth everyday, but still the questions are not answered. Are we really meant to be born here live our lives and then die. Its like thier's somebody watching us through an hour glass like we are a small planet inside a hour glass where scientist study us above. We could be like mice. We study mice all the time. Maybe there is a lot of somethings studying us to see how we live and react.

Dreams

Why do we dream? Do we dream just to give us something to do while we sleep. Maybe dreams are suppose to make us smarter or dumper. I have heard that most people never hit the rim stage in there sleep because they are dreaming. I have also heard that you dream after you hit the rim stage in your sleep, but for me its none of these. I always dream of people chasing me its like I'm always getting into trouble in my dreams. I had this dream one time that I was in court accused of killing someone. I dream of always being on the run from everything including life. I always wake up frightened and worried that this really happened. I wondered sometimes that if I handcuff myself to the bed would it keep me from worry about it the next day. You know just to show myself that I never left the bed. I wouldn't hurt a fly. I don't even like to hunt. I prefer to go hunting and just sit there and take pictures of nature. I just wish that I could have those dreams where you wake up happy, aroused, or just excited about living to the next day.

"Creativity": To Be or Not To Be

I have a rapid cycling manic disorder. I have read in my Get Creative class that doctors and scientists from the past believe that people with this disorder are creative. I don't believe I'm creative sometimes I do creative things, but as far as drawing, painting or writing I'm not creative. I might be creative in other ways, but I haven't discovered it yet. I'm just slow at doing task, I never get anything done on time, I forget about what I'm suppose to do half the time. I can't remember anything, If you were to ask me what I was wearing yesterday I couldn't tell you. I have a hard time with day to day life. I have even went out the door and forgot to put on shoes or got to the store and realize I had no wallet. So maybe all of this is a type of creativity that scientists haven't really discovered yet.